I no longer make new year's resolutions, I always end up disappointed with myself with the list of things to do and what not. Rather, I started a personal tradition of filling my heart with hope for the coming year...faith goals sealed with a prayer. That is after making all the noise I can make when the clock strikes 12, munched on media noche, kissed everyone in the family, not to mention jumping in joy and after we have sang a happy birthday to Papa. And as always I'm looking back at the year I'm being grateful for.
Two oh oh eight proved again that dreams do come true. And like what the Happy Talk nursery rhyme sings about,"you got to have a dream to have a dream come true". The last "big" dream I can't sleep on until it came to pass was my college attendance to University of the Philippines Los Baños. I dared not to think about any other college exams to take or ponder upon options b, c or d. Rather,in good faith I thanked the Lord that He will take me to where my heart really is.
Ten years later, a "bigger" dream is about to come to pass in my life. Again, in good faith I've claimed it even before I started working on this one, but when you have a great God to whom you cling on to, surprises are inevitable, thrill is a guarantee. And when you have come in agreement with Him, there's no room for any doubt and all you can do is live your life.
In the last 12 months I smiled, laughed, screamed and cried. I danced and sang, swam, jumped and hopped. I dared, traveled and walked in more than beach shores that I have been to in the first quarter of my life. I've forgave and forgot. I loved and unloved. There were moments when I made a fool of myself because of love, career decisions and some just for the sake of re-discovering myself. I failed in fulfilling what is expected of me. I stood up after every fall. I wished I did better in most tasks yet I'm glad I've made those mistakes. I made new friends and definitely miss the good 'ol ones. Looking back I can say that I'm learning how to celebrate life.
I'm stepping into the new year with a big smile on my face, a heart filled of hope, mind set on discerning and obeying God's will and over and over again I'm telling myself I'm ready for a big change this year - from plus 30 degree celcius to minus 30 temperature (from beach bum to ice queen, sand castles to snow angels) kidding aside but I'm ready for whatever it is that God has in stored for me. No matter how bumpy the road ahead of me, no matter how uncertain the future may be I only have one set of vision and a mission for this year - live the life I imagined.
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